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沉默地看If I can't make it with you, I can't make it with anyone
November 24 又是十一月 November RainWhen I look into your eyes I can see a love restrained But darlin' when I hold you Don't you know I feel the same 'Cause nothin' lasts forever And we both know hearts can change And it's hard to hold a candle In the cold November rain We've been through this such a long long time Just tryin' to kill the pain But lovers always come and lovers always go An no one's really sure who's lettin' go today Walking away If we could take the time to lay it on the line I could rest my head Just knowin' that you were mine All mine So if you want to love me then darlin' don't refrain Or I'll just end up walkin' In the cold November rain Do you need some time...on your own Do you need some time...all alone Everybody needs some time...on their own Don't you know you need some time...all alone I know it's hard to keep an open heart When even friends seem out to harm you But if you could heal a broken heart Wouldn't time be out to charm you Sometimes I need some time...on my own Sometimes I need some time...all alone Everybody needs some time...on their own Don't you know you need some time...all alone And when your fears subside And shadows still remain, ohhh yeahhh I know that you can love me When there's no one left to blame So never mind the darkness We still can find a way 'Cause nothin' lasts forever Even cold November rain Don't ya think that you need somebody Don't ya think that you need someone Everybody needs somebody You're not the only one You're not the only one Can't quit this song, ever.
When I writing this down it almost comes the December
Every rain reminds me this splendid,great song
词写得太好了啊
曲调太完美了啊
浑然天成的流畅、铭心
结尾配以Slash那名垂吉他史的solo
钢琴声悠扬、磅礴、拳拳都让人印象深刻
这是一种蛊
让你禁不住想要随着音乐款款摇摆
让你禁不住想要随着Axl那极具穿透力的金嗓子高歌
挥洒着一切热情、淡漠
尽情地在歌海里畅游，不知疲倦，迎面向苍穹
呐喊
…  November 23 南瓜馒头 yesterday is a fuckwit day totally . Now hear this, early in the morning, my office is quiet to hell, everyone is just devoted to their work stuffs.when the time get 10, one person still hadnt showed up because of the cold, C'd gone out for revenue, and W'd gone to loo to the moment that Nanny lady came in.
Only 3 person in the office drived nanny totally crazy, she was such a baby,then she fired at me (bad luck for me that I was sitting the most close to her )
Nanny Dong: Lynn, where the hell are the rest people going? Didn't they come here on schedule ???
Me: Well, is accidental, L is ill that he has to leave for today, and C went to bureau just now and W is using the restroom.
Nanny Dong: (like deaf) what the hell are you doing now, soooo a few people in here ! what the hell are you doing, are you trying to mess around?? and you, Lynn, unfix your earplugs ,music private is forbidden here! no more earplug music from now on!
Kinda yelling at me but not loud  f*ccccccccccccccccccckI'm totally an innocent person.
are you out of your mind, what brings you the madness, you are such a baby and know nothing about out job ,you have no idea what we do, and how can you yelliing like that? that means yelling at me.
beside, you are very stupid, things wont be like what you just seen, to see is to believe isn't totally correct
Ignore the unhappyness, go on with my work stuff.
About an hour later, the work QQ is twinkling,
MSG Lynn, I'm sorry about before, I shouldnt have yelled at you, I shouldnt have used that tone to you, sorry, I was in a bad mood when I saw such a few persons in the office.
Honestly, that made me feel better.
But still, impersonal point, you are not a good leader, never.
You are as stiff as a poker,You're not suit for us, not suit for this trade,4ever.
 ______________________________________________________________________________________________________
 Assistant X made a couple of phone calls just now, she was looking for a few business personnels.
A: oh, sorry, i've already had a job now
B: sorry, the number you dialed is$^&**_)(^*%*(*_)
C: 手机欠费停机
D：前几天遭遇车祸，现在正躺在床上养伤……（祝您早日康复）
- -all....
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How times fly
I'm still missing something
... November 18 一匹布那么长的流水帐 整整忙了7天，是真真正正实在意义的忙，前所未有的忙。
年底有两个重量级的策划，所以整整一个礼拜，我几乎每天加班，甚至晚上睡觉脑子隐约都还在琢磨策划稿、图。
其实自己很有祥林嫂的感觉，因为仿佛越忙我才越高兴，之前那些基本上清闲得让我抓狂的日子兴许一去不复返了，但是感谢上天，让我觉得充实。之前的迷茫、无奈在部门换了新血液后，就如同脆弱的冰块在烈日下立即消融殆尽。
虽说跟WJ相处得很愉快，但是我不得不承认，在换了新总策划总编后，他们的管理、工作的方式确实要行之有效得多，感觉以前就像一盘散沙，现在终于多少变得有凝聚力了，有条理了。
其实本来本人只负责文案创意部分，那么至于我何以会忙到那种地步，主要有两个原因，第一，不想让自己退化，于是将文字跟设计几乎包揽了下来。想知道自己能将文字＆画图二者结合做到什么程度。另外一个原因就是，投入地工作，忙碌的工作能让人忘记一切不快的事情，哪怕只是暂时的，那对我来说，也是一种难能的解脱。
于是，每天除了画图还是画图，包括背景板、POP、宣传折页、宣传单、邀请函等等，改了又改。导致现在一闭眼，各种各种的花案扑头盖脸砸下来。
-_-不过有点郁闷的是，要知道八零年代的人跟六零甚至五零年代的人的喜好是不一样的，我必须一下穿越时空飞到他们的心田里，站在那个角度来构思……难啊
还是新领导说得对，“你不管难看好看，你只要照着领导的心意做就行，领导们觉得满意就行，你得学会揣摩体会。”
 道理谁不明白，harder than it sounds，不过我要学会习惯，嗯。 星期四的晚上，跟几个同事横冲直撞到大阪二区吃诸葛烤鱼，点了一条2.2斤的不知名鱼，一小锅鸭子，一碟香辣田螺，一份鱼头汤。
鱼肉格外鲜美，酸菜格外入味，辣椒格外鲜艳，色香味格外俱全。除了没碰那锅鸭子，其它的本人都吃得格外尽兴，勉强吃饱。其实那份烤鱼我自己一个人基本上就可以搞定……
我的食量很奇怪，对于我喜欢的食物，我可以爆发出惊人的食量，比如，吃鱼，比如，吃韭菜馅的饺子（注：一定是家里包的），再比如，吃巧克力，再再比如，吃冰淇淋，再再再比如，…
我这，不算暴饮暴食吧？
 菜饱过后，一行人东摇西摆走了两步进了隔壁那家七零年代酒吧，昏暗的格调让人更昏昏欲睡。
一个同事点了一杯饮品，在昏黄的灯光下越发地显得鲜艳。
不知道为什么，这杯饮品让我觉得格外刺眼。
我看着它良久，想拿起来一饮而尽，将困扰一饮而尽，卸下不快。
因为我选择忘记。
结果后来，我除了冰啤，什么都没有喝。
其实我很自嘲自己的不坚定，后来我又自我安慰地想，喝与不喝其实只是一种形式，即使喝了我也不见得就能那么果断。
其实也许，我内心并不想让自己记得忘记。
星期五的晚上，我差不多凌晨才回到家。放下包包，发现自己身上、衣服、头发全部都沾染上空调、烟、酒的混杂气味，那种味道让我很抓狂。
这天是一个饭局，跟电视台的人还有几个老总吃饭。闻了一个晚上的烟味，喝了难喝的红酒，极其冰凉的啤酒，味道鲜美的野菌，谈了2小时公事，喝了N杯茶。
说句实在话，我实在是很不喜欢参加这种饭局，坐什么位置都要很讲究让我感觉特拘谨，跟礼拜四的同事聚餐完全就是两个极端的感觉。我在不到48小时就由这端飞来了这端，无论是身体上还是精神上我都有点难接受。
这对我来说真的就是一种折磨。但是要命的是，今后肯定无可避免还会有更多这样的饭局，甚至比这个更正式。我想我到时候基本上就是行如机器人，行动僵硬，笑容公式化，，，，EW！！！！
 力不从心啊力不从心
这就是生活
许多你不喜欢的事情，但是你还是得被迫去做。
甚至会迷失自己。
星期六 今天终于截好了吴启华那期舞林大会的片断，那叫一个兴奋啊
看了不下三遍，看一次泪流一次。
这个时候的老吴 比任何时候都要帅
看到的是一个毫无做作，真情流露挚真的老吴
感、感动啊……
 啊！为啥我又提到这个了， ……
不写了。
November 16 Wishing well『舞林大会 第六期』
小菌提前告知我这期舞林大会有位我的favourite参加
当然要看。
吴启华。
想看他跳舞的样子。当天通知了办公室所有同仁，请他们一起也观看。
看的结果就是
看到他的翩翩舞姿外，他上演的求婚一幕，被他感动得双眼泛红…………………………………………………………………………………………
太太太感动了 脑子混乱了 我写不下去了～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～～
  老吴，祝你幸福！
ps：这一段视频我一定要找到 然后存下来～～～～～～～～～
『Børge Sildnes与他的dylan mondegreen』
期待这张专辑
November 14 Another Dream星期六晚上跟几个朋友大玩了一组语音剪辑，狂笑了一个晚上。
这是我从柳州回来以后真正意义上的头一次K歌，在电脑前，
代价就是第二天依旧觉得口干舌燥。
跟王韭菜聊天中无意中提到了一个蒸发已久的朋友，尘封已久的一缕miss掠过心头。
结果，当晚，当天晚上，
记忆中的梦境是这样的，我跟她背着背包一块儿到王韭菜所在地——北京旅游……- -
前方低沉的天色中赫然一座清式建筑
有山，有水，有石头
接着就跟着LL到北大转悠。
LL说：嗯，我要去更远的地方玩！
我说：啊，好啊，不过我要上班啊，哪像你那么幸福啊，那咱们能不能五一十一长假去，我玩一个礼拜就走了，你自己一个人接着玩。
LL很爽快：好的！
一把拍拍我的肩膀：下次咱们去敦煌，还有新疆！
我立刻扭头暗地寻思：啊？？？那要好多钱啊……自己存的不够啊……咋办咋办
PS： 那个梦中，LL始终都没有正面对过我 我看她的角度，始终都是右侧脸 并且她的披肩长发也把脸几乎给全挡了……
PS的PS： 王韭菜很匪夷所思地从始至终都没有出现过 ～～
PS的PS的PS： 我也想去拍一部《XXX大道》，不过绝对拍不出大卫林奇那种惊悚。
其实一切都还是出于对这位素未谋面的会友的挂念。
我们都好怀念三人开小会的情节，怀念你扔砖头的日子，怀念你拖着一筐筐韭菜往大伯的窝里倒的时候
其实，I'm just trying to say，we all miss you,LL。
November 06 AmanjenaAmanjena 在马拉喀什当地语中解释为“平和的天堂”
I want you to be my avalon
托南宁三会一节的福，放了三天假，恰逢重阳节，于是决定回一趟柳州，去拜祭爷爷奶奶还有离开我们7年整的小叔叔。
很久没有离开南宁，傍晚的快巴，车上放的是成龙的警察故事。
把iPod开到足够掩盖影片声音的音量，扭头看着暮霭中公路旁蜿蜒的景色。
无边的绿野，一座座高耸的山脉，还有那夜色中点点灯火，一种静谧的美，夜幕的美。
那就像Amanjena。
此刻脑海里没有一丝杂念，很自然地就融入这种平和当中。
而我就是此刻的看客。
第二天就是坐客。
跟柳州的亲戚们驱车前往坟山。
4辆小车在不是一般颠簸的山路上颠簸着，当时就像是当年坐船过海的感觉，坐车如坐船。
依旧把iPod的音量开得很大，好让我从眩晕的状态下解救出来，and it really worked。
柳州的气温比南宁的更极端，清晨外出我要穿上两件长袖还颇感微凉，中午热得简直就像整个人要燃烧起来。
更何况我们又是在山上，毒辣辣的太阳刺得几乎没法开眼。
爷爷奶奶的墓靠得很近，山青，天蓝，周围是一片甘蔗林，盛午的阳光下，一切都有条不紊又很安静地进行着。
我站在车旁，四周远望，很多年没有好好看过柳州的风景，真的好美。
在此刻的大自然面前，一切都可以消融殆尽。
偶尔的热风拂过山头，蔗林，沙沙的声音格外清晰。
我们的身影在石山，绿野的对比下是如此地微不足道，
可以忽略。
一切就只有山，石，绿，风，阳光。
那种感觉，
那就像Amanjena。
May they rest in peace。
No place could have been better to them。
第三天依旧是坐客。
这天是正是九九重阳节。
远岫对壶觞， 澄澜映簪绂 沙岸菊开花， 霜枝果垂实
九月九日望遥空，秋水秋天生夕风
去了常青公墓，拜祭我的小叔叔。
整整七年。
叔叔刚走的时候，婶婶全盘崩溃，终日以泪洗面，她曾经一个人从家里步行了三个多小时到叔叔的公墓，伤心欲绝。
叔叔的走，对我们大家的打击都很大，但是对于婶婶来说，那种打击也许就是毁灭性的，她心里有些东西也许已经完完全全死掉了，无形的。
7年后的她，对我们一如既往的和蔼，笑靥，但是还是不难看出，
她始终没有走出那个阴影，在她的笑容下掩盖的始终是失去自己至爱的人的永远无法愈合的伤口。
拜祭完叔叔，我们都走到一旁静静等候，婶婶静静站在墓前，我们都听到了她那竭力却无法忍住的哭声。
我知道，那是一种断肠。
四周还是海旷般的静谧。
依旧是绿色宁静宜人，多了个绿水，还有松柏。
一排一排白色的整齐墓碑，多少个逝去的生命，多少个故事，岁月流逝，时光将去，
四周永恒的自然永恒的绿是这一切的见证，包括婶婶的深情，包括我们对叔叔无止境的怀念。
风烟不改年长度，终待林泉老此身。 那就像Amanjena。
November 01 我就是电影这几天发生的事情，恍如大银幕的幅幅映像，
现在，我也可以像唐菲那样，把头一昂，酷酷拽拽地说道：
“我就是电影”
戏剧般的日子，戏剧般的情节，
我以为我的眼前在上演着一部电影
但是当我回过神来，却发现它们都是真真实实地存在、发生过
我就是电影
其实我一点儿也没有兴奋的感觉
请不要误解
其实在念着这句话的同时，
我无比清楚地感觉到了从我内心深处油然而生的一种迷茫，一种无奈
THAT'S NOT WHAT I WANT October 26 QuiT This is not gonna make me feel good. Somthing like shareholder stuff got reorganized ,and seems like everything is change here.
My ex-leader WJ's leaving now and what she left me is a "I will miss you" message and i dont even get the chance to say goodbye to her.
Of course i'm gonna miss her too, for over a whole year she've been so good to me, she taught me so many things,she's really a good teacher, a good leader.
but that's not enough to change thing.She just quit now, so suddenly.
People may have one million of reasons to quit but, to the employee,just only one reason can make them stay. WEll perhaps she cant even find that very only one reason for stay.
Let's concentrate on the very new leader lady who take－over, my burning questions are where do ya come from and what did ya do for living in the world? They've been buzzing for several days. She's always smile to us, that smile is that kind which make us feel so in fear and trembling, I dont mean that smile is fake, but we're not sure it's from hers real care or other meaning.
first, seems like she knows nothing about our job, what we're working on.
 very absurd. Second, there comes her careful words like " it's late, you should go home now" every 6 pm, she doen't want we to OT, and when we're all gone, she left in our office and about what she did we've no idea,we have no idea what's going on in there
She interrupts my evening-study scheduled time !!! It;s been 3 days I've wasted !!
I wish to hell I could ask her why... Can you not just be sooo a nanny???
Missing WJ now,really really miss.
 Now I dont know what I can learn from this nanny lady.
Another executive, he's a higher-up, what we call is “ Now you see Me Now You Don't”who always show up after work, we had a dinner 2 days ago, I think he's a quite nice person, just no idea would this is good enough to be an higher-up. at least, to us.
Lets just see what's gonna happened.
I reall wish we were wrong. |
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